“Saturn is in retrograde!”
Saturn is in retrograde! – Anna had been watching an astrology channel on YouTube again. She was feeling unsettled and didn’t know what to make of her feelings for the new employee at the gym. Seeking advice, she turned to an online astrologer, even though she didn’t really understand much about it.
Saturn is in retrograde… Where to? Where does he want to go back to? To a time gone by, to revive old dreams? “Hey, Saturn, where are you running off to?” she asked him. There was frustration in her voice, and a hint of reproach. It was raining. The sound of raindrops drumming on the roof made her nervous. On top of that, the room was chilly and the chair was uncomfortable. And to make matters worse, she was tormented by the thought of Saturn in retrograde. It stirred up her fear of endlessly repeating old, failed love stories.
“Screw Saturn! Enough with the superstition! I’m not going back—I want to move forward!”,
she thought. With this sudden realization, it became clear to her that she had to take the initiative herself in order to start over in love.
Is there even such a thing as “forward” and “backward” out there in the infinite universe? Isn’t it just space—infinite space—filled with countless stars, planets, and black holes, and who knows what else?
She remembered the many nighttime walks in the Arizona desert: above her, the all-encompassing Milky Way, densely studded with countless stars. Ah, what splendor! Even now, as she recalled it, her breath paused: an enchanted world, an enchanted night! Who cares where Saturn is moving! It is free! Free like love itself!
Everything is hilarious. With this knowledge in her heart, she wanted to discover her new love. Everything is hilarious. She wanted to approach everything she was already doing and the friendships she already had with a completely new perspective. She wanted to pay attention to everything anew, to uncover the mystery inherent in all things.
Even if the new guy at the gym were into her, she would want to rediscover love with him.
Maybe, as Saturn, he would even walk right up to her?
