Jack of Clubs


Not a person.
All the reaction patterns that have accumulated over a lifetime.
The constant fear of having to defend or attack.
But also:
Willingness to break through.
Willingness to bring awareness, coupled with creative ideas, into play when conflicts arise.
Openness to clarifying conversations instead of reacting as usual.

Here I am, the Jack of Clubs. A lot of people are scared of me. They experience me as an exorbitant influencer or as a nasty creature. Out of me come tantrums, jibes, impatience, hostility, bullying, jealousy - simply everything that squirts out of you in certain moments. Even small sarcastic insults in conversations I provoke in you. Yes, it's scary, I have to admit, I'm hard to control. But today I want to let you look behind the scenes. Try to understand me:
I am your servant, and a very, very obedient one. I work according to programs that were implanted in me during your childhood and adolescence. One calls me the unconscious! With my strategies you once defended and protected yourself.

What is inappropriate today in adulthood, the jealousy, the anger and all that rubbish, was somehow okay in childhood. Rumbling around, making noise, scolding, being angry - the little ones are easily forgiven.

But now, as an adult? Where to put all this? Often people try to control me, suppress me, stuff my old programs down, with a lot of effort. Sometimes it works for a while. But then again, everything goes back to the old way.

However, if you understand that I am your servant, then there is a simple solution:

The magic word is consciousness.

Consciousness naturally brings creativity and change into play.

Become aware that your automatised reactions come from times long past. Henceforth you have the chance to transform this misused energy into healthy behavior. Henceforth, old patterns of behavior will give you room for balanced action. Henceforth, you can decide each time anew how you want to respond to humiliation, attack or fear.

This is the breakthrough!
With consciousness this liberated energy is suddenly available for your life: for peace, for kindness, for love and ease in dealing with yourself and others.



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  1. I am visited by the Jack of Clubs in the form of fear, a serious Lord, black clothed.
    Fear of doing things never done before, before of meeting people, fear of learning skills, fear of creativity and difference…fear of having to perform, to respond to certain standards that I have only stablished…FEAR…

    I open the door, move in the sun or in Yoga class, talk to someone, write an email, create a new recipe….And the Jack of Clubs is that friendly dude that offers a hand and a pat on the back…

    • How do I get what you are saying with such honesty! Thank you, my dear friend. So far we did share quite some dance in this life – sometimes close (baking etc.), and now further away and yet sharing the space of creativity and courage while walking into the light. Wow!

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